Happy Halloween! Lady Gatita's Tribute to the King of Hell

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My beautiful sexy nerds!

Last night my nerd group nerd-vana performed to a pack house at legends.  Its Oct so we went with obvious theme. Fantasy,d&d and roleplaying games.  It was the most balanced show we've had.  We had music from the blithering humdingers, metricula and comedy rock star Mikey Mason!  A galley of sexy burlesque dancers.  From lady violet arcane and her performance to a metal version of baby got back in scale mail. Ashes rolling her d6's.  Claudia vainglory' s tribute to her avatar.  Memphis debuting her fliking skills as well as her assets. Thank goodness we found a d&d book big enough to cover them. We had janet s. Planets and her debut to raleigh stage.  Lich bitches is all I have to say. And then there was jackson and his tribute to the princess bride.  Theres no decribing it you really had to be there. 
And if you weren't there you missed strip d and d.  Which was epic as well as the you shall not pass contest.   

I almost forgot The Lord War Bunny's debut on  stage with his spoken word piece "game night" with Mikey Mason playing guitar behind him.   
I have an epic crew. My host Rich who keeps the crowd on their toes and in stitches with his rule 34 erotica.   Monique and Melz taking care of the front of the house. And our stage manager jynxx who herds the cats.  And glittery nerdy cats are not easy to herd.    I couldn't do this show without them.  Its the bright spot in my week as I begin a difficult journey.   I head up north today so I can be with my mom as she starts her first round of chemo.    Its all these folks that have allowed me to not fall into a deep depression.   Its these people and many more of my friends who have made this trip to ny possible.  I am so grateful.

Rule 63, body image and burlesque

Saturday I debuted the crowley burlesque.  Sunday I taped my Halloween video featuring a crowley fire dance.   I have been a little obsessed with Crowley lately. With no other fandoms with fresh content, I steeped myself into supernatural.  And with with real life kind of sucking lately I retreated into my fandom.  
At the moment I noticed I have an attraction to rule 63.   I had already a Lady Jayne.  So I decided Lady Crowley had to happen.   Something interesting happened.  I felt very sexy and powerful as Crowley.  Even though I show almost no skin.  The power suit with the tie and corset were empowering..

Lady Jayne I feel fearless (you have to be to wear that ridiculous bra) 
My Crowley burlesque was a bit of a stretch cause if you ever seen me do burlesque it tends to be more on the silly ridiculous side rather then sexy. And this was on the sexy side. Not my comfort zone.  Its easy to take my clothes if I'm being silly. If its sexy all the body issues come into play.  Are people going to think I look like a whale? Are they to be  going to be cruel etc etc...
I find I'm much more brave on stage thay i am in real life, but I tend hide behind comedy.  

So I was trying to figure out why I'm so attracted to rule 63.  Its two fold.  First, there are very few badass characters that are female that don't wear a thong and bra, or as my roommate say armor of distraction.  

Second, its a body image thing.  It just occurred to me that if I fem a male character i don't have to worry that body doesn't look like the character cause i've changed the gender.  

So even when I think I've gotten over my body issues they are still there.  I struggle with them every day.  I'm still some peoples worst nightmare.  A fat cosplayer, performer, burlesque dancer who is not afraid to be sexy and completely dresses and acts inappropriately for her age and size. 

Those people who put down fat cosplayers forget, We don't do this for you.  We do this for ourselves and the love of the character.  For me its an escape.  When things get bad in real life I can escape into my fandom.  Its supposed to be a safe space. Most of the time it is.  

I find for me the fear of not doing something is greater then the fear of doing it.  

More crowley burlesque pieces

More pieces from the crowley number I'm unveiling tonight.  The panties with the angel sigil on the butt.  No photo but the front has an Enoican (sp?) Symbol in silver Sequin on the front.  The devils trap pasties (yay!)   And of course the sequin devils horns and crown barrettes.  This is burlesque felt the need for a little sparkle.

Rule 63 once again... first Lady Jayne now Lady Crowley

So my current obsession is supernatural and Mark Sheppard.  I ♡ Crowley.   So I have a fire routine and a burlesque tribute to him!  So I had to come up with a costume.   Of course it had to have burlesque touches.  So here's a sneak peek.
I really proud of the horn barrettes and crown.